The roots I have grown remind me of the blood blood red of a rose, full if beauty and tragedy.
The foundation I have built with beautiful Souls reminds me of the orange sky at sunset.
The joy I feel when gratitude overfills me reminds me of the yellow in a Micheal Angelo painting.
The love I have in my heart reminds me of a walk in the forest amongst the green leaves of the maples, oaks and poplars, not to mention the stunning evergreens.
The truth I speak reminds me of the water. It is blue like the Ocean reflecting the sky. It can be harsh and hurt or soft and gentle.
The knowledge I have gained in this lifetime reminds of the Indigo sky at Dawn or Twilight where the night sky is about to break out more stars than I can ever see.
The Wisdom I possess through trials and tribulations reminds me of a Crown, Sovereignty. Gold and violet. It is an obligation to use my suffering to assist others on their healing journey.
A journey to self enlightenment.
A journey of becoming themselves.
There are a lot of people out there
that take one side and judge.
They see the view of one person only.
They are anti this and pro that.
There is their way or the highway.
They quickly weed their circle of friends
of anyone that does not share
their grandiose views and opinions.
They fail to see any World
except the one they live in.
They are sometimes irrational in their beliefs
and cannot actually tell you
why they are standing that ground.
These people fail to take personal accountability
or admit any wrongdoings.
Then there are the rare gems in the crowd.
That look outside the box,
they get a feel for others,
they listen to all involved.
These diamonds in a World of coal
cannot even form an opinion
as they see the story from all angles.
The big picture presents itself to them,
the consequences, the reprecussions, the wholeness.
These are the people
that fight for the freedom
for you to be your authentic self,
for you to believe what you believe.
These people are the ones
that would lay down their life
to protect truth and innocence.
If they could take your suffering away,
These are often the outcasts of Society,
The Black Sheep, The Witch, The Crazy Ones.
The ones the majority of Society snubs
because they don’t “Get them.”
These are your Angels, your Gods, your Goddesses,
your Brothers, Sisters, Mothers, and Fathers.
That you have abandoned, forsaken and betrayed.
These are the ones that are still willing
to show you the way
with patience, non-judgment
We used to live in villages and knew everyone around us.
People with different viewpoints, different experiences and different knowledge.
You could have an intellectual debate and walk away feeling educated instead of bitter, resentful and not heard.
We could see through the eyes of those around us and understand.
We did not demean or degrade those that thought outside the norm.
We encouraged finding a new way.
Change keeps us from being stagnant, it allows us to grow.
Now we live in an indvidual family unit.
The extended family is relegated to reunions or set family visits.
We go to schools that teach us to compete and to look to others for acceptance instead of teaching us to look for it within.
We put our children that we do not understand into boxes with labels and keep them in a broken system that no serves them no use.
We have erased nature, our main ally from our lives and see it as a “weekend getaway” or something to own and possess.
We have lost our understanding of those around us due to selfish, egocentrical behaviour that is me, me, me and take, take, take until givers have absolutely nothing left to give.
We used to be united
As an Earth
As a Country
As a Community
As a Family
and within ourselves.
Yet as the World moves father away
It seems we are divided, at each others throats, unable to see any way but our own.
Fear has been a mitigating factor
Fear of Failure
Fear of Change
Fear of the Unknown
Fear of other Cultures
We were not meant to be stuck in one way,
repeating the cycles of 5125 years.
We are to end the division
Stop being afraid
Accept the change
and come together in Unity.
All colours, all races, all genders, all religions/faiths, all creeds.
We are all one
We are all children of the same Universe
We all inhabit our Mother the Earth that provides for us.
We were all meant to learn from one another.
Not tear each other apart for being different.
We have different knowledge, different experiences, different attitudes
yet we are all Spirits having a human existence here.
I am on a journey to becoming a better speaker and getting more out there. I entered a contest and didn’t win but it inspired me to continue to become the best version of myself possible. Here is a video I did for the contest that I was most proud of, however, it was too long to submit https://youtu.be/zFA8mGlH3Lc
I was strong enough to survive my grandfather thinking I was an object for his pleasure.
I was strong enough to survive my alcohol mother who eventually got sober.
I was strong enough to survive losing my virginity being raped in sea cadets.
I was strong enough to survive moving out on my own and still receive my high school diploma.
I was strong enough to survive joining the Military, being charged for speaking out about being raped and losing my career.
I was strong enough to survive 3 abusive husbands, the beatings that came with them, and countless horrible men who saw me as nothing more than a conquest.
I was strong enough to survive raising my 2 Sons as well as some of their friends even though it cost me my sanity at times.
I was strong enough to survive speaking out publicly about sexual abuse in the military and the aftermath that occurred at a time where it was unspoken of and you were supposed to just be quiet.
I was strong enough to survive going to University full time while working full time and raising my boys.
I was strong enough to survive keeping a roof over my families head no matter the cost to my Soul.
I was strong enough to survive the many suicide attempts and my scars have become reminders that I have lived and are being replaced with beautiful tattoos.
I was strong enough to survive leaving my home and the only place that ever felt safe to me and find a new family and place to belong.
I was strong enough to survive the constant feelings of abandonment and betrayal and turn them into a purpose.
I was strong enough to survive anything that was thrown at me and it has made me realize that no matter what may come I will always be strong enough to survive.
The Blame Game. From a very young age I was conditioned I was the problem., that there was something wrong with me. This was reinforced as I got older and after various healing modalities I have discovered the shame and guilt I have felt for being a “bad person,” that made me feel like I should apologize for existing was not for me to carry. I was stronger than any of them thought possible because I was resilient. Society (Family, Organizations, Systems) could knock me down but I keep getting back up. This is because deep in my heart despite what everyone said I knew I was right, I knew it wasn’t my fault and I had a struggle between my brain and my heart. I discovered I was normal for me. I just needed to listen to the part of myself that had my best intentions at heart with the utmost compassion to see that I made everyone uncomfortable so they tried to control and conform me, however I am a Renegade that is a free Spirit, never meant to be tamed and I will continue to draw strength from my adversity and promote that positive change is possible because everything happened for me not to me.
Please check out the video that is linked.
Sharing my truth, sharing my journey. One day at a time. I hope to help others realize that their dreams will always come true, sometimes you just take a different path.
So many people judge what they cannot see and what they do not know. They react to someone with disdain or sarcasm without knowing one thing about that person. These are the fake people who walk around thinking they are above others and have no compassion. If you see someone with an obvious disability you often feel compelled to assist in some way but what about people who have invisible injuries, like post traumatic stress injury, fibromyalgia, chronic pain, gastrointestinal issues, diabetes and many other things.
Stress takes its toll on everyone and some of these people are on their last legs and pretending really good so that others don’t worry about them or put them down.
Life is hard enough, before you judge, look down upon, talk shit or demean someone look in the mirror and think about what gives you the right, you don’t even know them.
To all my friends and family that life has knocked down for a bit, I want you to know I understand and you are never alone and I will never judge you, no matter what you have done. The past is the past. Positive change is possible. Keep your chin up. Stand Tall. Be proud and have a most excellent day.